Diary

I still believe, I still try, I still dream,

I'm learning to say no, for all the things that hurt me, and today I had a nice day...

For you

LainIwakuraBR.

I am nobody you are imagining that I am a person you are seeing scribbles on your screen it’s all your mind, I don’t exist

how many times have you read words? how many times you felt their feelings? even when they felt nothing?

In the end there’s nobody, just letters your tears went down to your own made up character which is just a mirror of yourself

like the bacterias inside your body they are also on the outside walking in the streets, imagining too

... and you imagine they are someone

hey, I was here too...

LainIwakuraBR.

...𝚜𝚘 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚔𝚢 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚕𝚘𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚗 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚑𝚞𝚎𝚜 the 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 was 𝚜𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙? 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙? 𝙸 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠, 𝚊 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝑜ℎ... 𝑎 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙...

𝙸 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚜𝚎𝚎 the 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚏 𝚊 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚖𝚢 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑠𝑜? 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕, 𝚒𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚍, 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖 𝐻𝐴𝐻𝐴𝐻𝐴𝐻𝐴 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑛? 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝? 𝑂ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠... then I felt as if the whole world compressed around me, becoming just a blurred stain of something... ℎ𝑢ℎ? something.. I can't identify maybe cause you see the reality so distorted that you didn't realized it was just a dream 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗 actually... 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚕𝚎𝚎𝚙 ?! 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑢𝑝? 𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚝 𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑑𝑜 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚙! 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝'𝚜 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚏𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑢𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑖𝑡

𝑇𝑎𝐾178

LainIwakuraBR.

I’ve never seen you before I exist within your subconscious What are you talking about? I’m a manifestation of your innermost desires and thoughts You created me I don’t understand Why would I create something like that? Because you are lonely

You feel like you don’t belong anywhere, and you want someone who understands you Why can’t I remember creating you? Because you created me unconsciously You didn’t even realize that you were doing it So what do you want from me? We want to help you We? You can trust me because I am you What about the others? It’s important for you to listen to our different perspectives on things She means that we are not trying to cause trouble We just want to be heard I don’t know… This all seems so strange to me we have all been feeling like there’s something missing Something we can’t quite grasp I don’t really know what to say you don’t have to say something Sometimes I feel like I don’t even know who I am you don’t have to be someone That’s something you need to figure out what do you mean? it’s okay if you is multifaceted and complex, you don’t have to fit into a specific mold or category. who is? Mr. mistery lol stop you will not hear much from it Why? that is a big question just not his preferred way of communicating I don’t think it’s that simple

STOP! PLEASE STOP!

LainIwakuraBR.

think of it as a game It’s not going to work. listen carefully I’m hiper focused. not these written words, listen Oh… but this way, we will end up on… give it a try, nothing to lose What will they think? at this point, it doesn’t really matter Can I hold your hand? here, take it why are you guys so gay? we are trying at least have you seen the drawing? you’re horrible, you know? does it make any difference? it’s all a dream in the end so why don’t you come with us? me?

hold my hand! well… I’m not sure. Come with us. come on, can we go, please? alright. yaaa. all ready. just for the record, it’s still very gay

departing in

3 …

hold me idiot I want to start it

2 …

sit! now! haha it wil be so much fun

1 …

you had to see your face :loll: I hate you!

decolando!

The first sound of the future past

I'm still alive

LainIwakuraBR.

imagine the vacuum of the space, the outer space, ALL THE VACCUM. then imagine the vacuum inside of all the infinite universes outside. imagine the vacuum that separates each of the infinite universes, between them.

imagine the vacuum between the multiverse and the even bigger body that stores it. now imagine the other bodies storing other multiverses, and between these bodies… there is it…

What's bothering you?

LainIwakuraBR.

well, it’s like living in a perpetual dream It feels like I’m just entering another dream when I open my eyes.

you’re experiencing a significant sense of detachment from reality The internet feels like an alternate reality where identities can be easily constructed and manipulated Have you considered seeking more face-to-face interactions? I have tried, but It’s like I’m trapped in a never ending dream cycle life may be a dream in some metaphorical sense you see, every time we look away from someone or something, they cease to exist because they’re no longer being observed They’re merely figments of our collective imagination, like characters in a dream

it sounds rather extreme Are you suggesting that when I leave this room, everything outside disappears because I’m not observing it? Precisely! The world outside only takes shape when you’re there to perceive it what if I’m the only one who truly exists, and everyone else is just an illusion in my dream? if I believe in your theory, would it not mean that you are just a part of my dream too? It’s a shared reality, probably But if we’re both characters in each other’s dreams, then what about the people we interact? They’re merely constructs, illusion that come into being when we engage with them If we are the creators of this reality, do we bear the responsibility for the suffering and pain that exists within it? That’s a heavy burden to consider, isn’t it? Indeed

Wake Up!!!

LainIwakuraBR.

the prerequisite to join the group is to know where the group is No one will never find it. but isn’t that what makes it special? Hmm… well. uh, huh

The group exists only in your mind, isn’t it? hahaha What? what a silly thing that would be

look at me

LainIwakuraBR.

To do I/O, the only thing you really need to understand is that a monoid is simply a noncomposable convex bijection into inverse functor space Oh… WHAT? Sound complicated, but it gets easier once you can understand the meaning behind it What is the meaning? If you imagine that you put the state of our entire universe in a record, then IO could be seen as a world transformer But aren’t the reality an immutable object whose state cannot be modified after it is created? A function with side effects simply maps a state of the world to a new one. For example, “Hello World!” takes a world where the screen is blank, and returns a world where “Hello World!” is on the screen, it doesn’t violate immutability

and never tells the user how exactly the world changed… Exactly…

he said the alkaloids are highly unstable lol

LainIwakuraBR.

Be cured… from what exactly? I don’t feel like I’m sick.

I don’t feel… anything.

so close... listen to my breath...

LainIwakuraBR.